“That’s why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they’d call them something else.” — Anonymous
1. I’m pretty sure my first crush was actually in Kindergarten. I don’t remember much except for the fact that when we had our class picture taken and they had me stand behind my crush I was so shy you could barely see my face in the picture. Guy is currently still single.
2. However, I like to tell people my first crush was in 3rd grade… and that it was a “crush at first sight”. LOL. I first fell in love with his name… then I saw him with his Alladin backpack. Yes, I seriously remember that. It lasted until 6th grade when thanks to a bunch of friends who can’t keep a secret the whole class found out… it really was a bit catastrophic the drama, which lasted until 9th grade, I think. He moved to another school for the high school years, and yet by some strange coincidence I became best friends with his cousin. That was a bit awkward. Nevertheless, the person is now married and has a daughter.
3. When I was about 10 or 11, I met with a boy two years older than me, the son of a friend of an aunt. Despite only knowing him for a few hours, I sobbed like mad when I overheard my aunt and my grandma talking about playing matchmaker between this guy and my cousin. Several years later, I visited his family home and he showed me his newly renovated room, which was super awesome, and played me some music that he and his band recorded. In a super romantic moment, he asked me how it was, meaning the music, but I was so nervous that I commented awkwardly on the room instead and made absolutely no sense. Quite obviously disappointed, he turned off the music and we headed back down to the family room. I still think that it would’ve been my first kiss had I not been so stupid. Apparently he turned a workaholic when his mother died and I haven’t really seen him ever again, although I met his younger brother and am still sort of in contact with him (the younger brother).
4. In 9th grade, I had a major crush in a guy 2 years my junior who was a super sweet-talker. This turned into a major relationship drama as I became close to his ex-girlfriend and he ended up dating my best friend at the time. Highly complicated, I tell you.
5. Recovering from the heartbreak the previous guy brought, I crushed on another 7th grader… I really can’t remember whatever happened to this particular crush. What I do remember was that one day we were talking after school and he wouldn’t let me go… until I let him hold my hand and he kissed it!
6. At about 9, I first met this guy at church who became the longest crush I ever had. I remember I was smitten for him when we first met, but then I never saw him again (I think he went off for his studies) until roughly 5 years later when common ministry brought us pretty close. This closeness led up to the faithful night where I could almost have had my first kiss — except that I was so young and innocent (HAHA) that it turned sort of awkward and we actually ended up not speaking for almost two years, I think. Then, despite still having major feelings for him, I had to endure him flirting around with a whole bunch of other girls as he has his way around them… while we just constantly bicker at each other. I’m pretty sure my heart would still beat faster when he’s around even now.
7. Second semester of 10th grade, I crushed on a senior who was in the school debate team. If I remember correctly, we became pretty close after a Valentine’s Day texting spree over a “secret admirer” chocolate package I delivered to him as part of my task in the student council. Of course, the package was from me. Also, as far as I remember this was the only crush who actually got a birthday present from me — a novel that had just came out and was all the rage, which was SO hard to find and I just happened to come across the last copy available at a bookshop. The novel is still my favorite novel ever, although I’m pretty sure it has nothing to do with crushing on him.
8. In university, I actually made a long list of potential crushes which was highly ridiculous. I ended up having real crushes on only two of them though… well, okay, three… except the one crush eventually became my boyfriend, AFTER I had stopped crushing on him (it’s complicated, always is).
9. Another pretty major crush was with a guy from choir, who was quite obviously crushing on me as well… once, he gave me a drawing he made of me for my birthday — one out of 3 attempts ever made to draw me.
And I could actually go on and on but let’s keep it at that for now 🙂